I'd just finished watching Pride & Prejudice. I guess it's time to read the book proper.

First though, I'm a bit old and a bit slow compared to friends who have swooned over Mr Darcy, but now I know why he's been such an idol to friends in secondary school and JC.




He's rigid, composed, has impeccable manners, although honest to the point of bluntness and a little socially awkward, yet incredibly loyal to his family and friends. Not to mention steadfast in love.

I'm willing to bet the book is better than the movie.

I'm halfway through the unabridged version of Jane Eyre and am a fan of the character Mr Rochester. I'm wondering if I should go dig up the movie (if there is one).

Whoops. What's with me and these types of characters? Seems like the sort of character that really tickles a girl's fancies are those with a distinct flaw running through their otherwise stolid personality, counter-balanced by a fierce loyalty in love.

My gift is my song... and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple, but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words...
How wonderful life is, now you're in the world

I sat on the roof and I cant tell for miles
Well some of these verses, well they,
they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes, I've ever seen

And you can tell everbody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is, now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is, now you're in the world

I got my master's conferrment letter!!!

Bwahahahaha
Bwahahahahahaha
Bwahahahaha

It's finally over.
Goodbye, crappy old memories. Welcome to THE NEW ME ahahahahahaha...

This new year, I have decided to have some resolutions:
1. Draw more. If I'm always prone to writing negatively, I found that I tend tO draw positively. The resolution is to be positive and maintain the kotatsu cat series.

2. SDN's newsletter says, make finding love your new year's resolution! I will. I have had a wonderful time being single. This time, I was patient enough to wait and find my old self back. I will also add to that resolution; I will try finding a PROPER love. I have learnt to discern unsuitable guys and have "practiced" my newfound skill with successful results. Disclaimer time: this doesn't mean that I will find a new love within this year. But I will start opening up and being receptive again this year. Here's to a bastard free year! :D

3. Work-wise, I will get my RAPS certification. I just need to eke some time out and get motivated. RAPS exam will require lots of study time. How? Aaaa...

4. Talk more with my mom. Now that she is changing and becoming more receptive, I don't want to miss the boat.

5. Finally, I want to be more generous with my friends.

Aaand done! :) HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012! New start for a new girl.

Yesterday, my elder sister and younger brother came into my room with a cake and candles.

Except it wasn't a cake; it was a gingerbread house. With a santa claus in it, meaning it was a christmas pastry (xmas was 5 days ago), not a birthday one. Later on my brother, after some probing, confessed he hadn't bought it. He'd gotten it as a present from his friend Shawn whose family had gone on holiday in Maldives.

The candles? They were from a stash of candles my brother kept in his cupboard. There were 5 on the "cake" (I am now 26. Go figure, what the heck was 5 for.)

I had brushed my teeth and my aligners. I had to take out the whole darn contraption to eat the "cake", at 11pm, an hour before my birthday officially ended. It tasted awful; dry, tough and tasteless, as is standard tourist confectionary. I didn't say anything about the "surprise", but after packing up the remains and putting it in the fridge, I felt that I would have preferred having NO "surprise" at all compared to this half-baked fanfare.

I'm a big girl now.
Dinner with family is in order. Please let them be home.

Edit: Best birthday surprise came from my mom. She called to ask if I would be home. Then we had dinner together and chatted for a long time. Out of nowhere, she brought up the subject of a mother's favouritism among siblings. I think yesterday, something happened to jolt her along this line of thought. Finally, years of silent tears, waiting for this moment, not daring to say anything for fear of being an ungrateful daughter. Finally, the self-doubt has been lifted. Years of gradually believing I was truly not good enough, self-reproach, it went away this day.

All the happiness in the world, it was mine this day.

It's dong zhi (belated) and time to have my favourite tangyuan. *meaningful*

Edit: Successfully cooked tangyuan! Plus mom said it wasn't bad. Happy :)

在天願作比翼鳥
在地願為連理枝

The lengths I go to stick to my 1 year plan.

No relationships. Of course, not to the extent where you have to knee the guy in the groin and yell 'NO' and run away. Subtle things; like staying clear away of guys who are clearly bastards and not getting involved.

I tend to liken it to an energy gradient in a chemical reaction. The guy tries to tip the ground you're on, to make it a favourable reaction such that you inevitably slide into his territory. The key is to tenaciously cling to your spot like a stubborn limpet and not budge. No compromises.

After all, if you were truly serious about me, you would wait till I'm ready.

Time is what we have and time is all we've got.

Am still following the disappearance of medical grad student klj.

There is no God.